"An Urge To Find Myself" this blog comprises of some of my real life experiences, fictitious articles/ stories, along with a few rhymes and poems... This blog also supports articles from an anonymous writer with the name "Blessing InDisguise"... We request all the readers to post your comments regarding the content of this blog. Thank you. Hope you will enjoy your voyage throughout this blog... --Jatin H K Sharma
Saturday, February 18, 2017
Just Like That
Saturday, June 11, 2016
Mumbai rains...
Mumbai Rains
As a token to remember this, we asked our beloved Aunty to make Potato and Onion Ponako (Bhajiya). Had them with tomato sauce. Hot and happening stuff to remember the beautiful first rain.
I believe this is just a start. More to come.
And its Mumbai Rains People.
Don't miss it for anything, and I mean anything...
Wednesday, April 27, 2016
Measuring happiness!!
It's been a long time since I posted anything on this portal. Today it seemed like an appropriate time.
Last night wasn't very promising for me this week, probably due to the weather in Mumbai. Though I certainly believe that this was not the only reason. I was not happy at the time I slept. I'm still trying to figure out the reason why.
Why should a guy like me be unhappy? What is it that's missing from my fairytale like life? I have a job, in the city I love, in the company I adore, among not so charming people (I am not indifferent from them) who never try to hurt me. Summer is definitely a concern, but most of my day is inside an air cooled building, so no worries there as well. I have friends I can talk to. I am associated with music and doing ok there as well. What else?
I have a bike, and can run away to any location in Mumbai at any time I want. Security is not a problem, what worse can happen? I have TV (that's a disappointment, as most of the stuff they show is crap, including commercial cricket). I have internet( where I waste most of my time socialising with people I don't know or care about... Sorry about that). What else?
The stuff that I mentioned till now, none of them really contributes to me being an unhappy person (please pardon my grammar, I've been told that I lack in communication skills). Maybe for a few hours but not in general.
By now I've spent at least 30 minutes wondering why I'm not happy, what interests me is that you still wonder what's next? This brings me to the actual question. What are you unhappy about? What is it that concerns you the most when you are alone? Is it loneliness itself? Or is it something else?
Everyone among us has some or the other concerns in his or her not so ideal life. But that's the whole story. Life is not ideal. If you think that you are unhappy, it's mostly because you found happiness in other people's lives and tried to relate why you don't have it. Well, when those people see you, they find something that they need but not have. A quality that stands you out, that makes you unique.
So don't be unhappy because of what you don't have. But be happy with what you have and use it to empower yourself to be happier than yesterday...
As I end this post, let me tell you that no matter how unhappy I was yesterday, I slept well and woke up early to view the rising sun from my living place. And trust me, it definitely made me happy today.
Pretty little things....
Yours truly...
An Urge To Find Myself
Monday, January 5, 2015
Beautiful Surat!!!
It was a bright Monday morning. I was trying to sleep, but the coldness of A/C kept me awake. I was in the train from Surat to Mumbai. It was a short journey of 3:30 hours, which gave me ample time to remember the course of events during the weekend.
November 8 '13
Saturday had an annoying start of day. My college mate Sundar had already asked me a few days ago if I could spare a weekend to go se his work location, i.e. Surat, as it was second Saturday, a holiday in most of the Maharatna and Navratna Companies of India. I had humbly rejected the request due to the appointment for agreement renewal. I regretted this when I heard about the agreement date had been postponed due to my broker's silly mistake.
Now I had to make up for this, more to myself than to my friend. I immediately called him that I was leaving for Surat. He was to hear the news. I checked the schedule for the train which was to leave at the earliest, quickly packed my bag with a few clothes, travel stuffs and took an auto to Bandra.
I did not have ticket for the train, as charts were prepared for all the trains which were leaving in the next hour. I had to go through the network of Ticket brokers in order to finally grab my ticket in Ranakpur Express that leaves from Bandra at 15:05. Buying a ticket at the 11th hour did cost me a fortune. Considering the salary I had then, I couldn't afford that kind of rate for a 3-4 hour journey in a train, but I did. Stubborn me! With ticket in hand and a few minutes left in the scheduled departure I decided to buy some stuff for my journey. I bought some snacks and a book (Secret of the Nagas: Second book in Shiva Trilogy).
My close to 4 hours of journey introduced me to the Indian region everyone has been talking about, mostly in a positive sense. I entered Gujarat.
Thursday, August 14, 2014
The Last Mile: C1 - Why her?
The conversation between me and my inner voice continued as we wandered across to the famous tea stall in Hiranandani. It's famous because of many things, namely tea, cigarettes, Paan, and other fast food stuffs. The average age of people who visit this place would be in the mid 20s.
"What's your opinion about women and their security? Why is she often a victim of crimes that must not be spoken of?" Asked the inner voice.
I sipped my tea, just to realize that it was hotter than I expected! I was amazed to hear such a question at this odd timing.
The place where we were standing was quite happening at this time of the night. Boys and girls, most of them still in college. IITians or MBAs would be my best guesses, provided we had institutions for both in the closest vicinity.
What I observed there wasn't strange, but it made me think deep on the question my inner voice asked. Men staring on these college girls, (or chicks as some might prefer). Men who were unknown to them. Practically raping them with the stares. "What's wrong in staring?" They would say. I'd say, nothing wrong in looking, but staring continuously is annoying. What if anyone unknown, whether boy or girl keep staring at you. You will feel scared a bit.
So I started my answer to the question like this, "I was watching this video the other day, in which the narrator said, "Women are weak, and that's why they are the victim of man's wrath." And I thought, "Oh really!"
I guess I might be one of those who has met a few powerful women, those who had the ability to mould the lives of themselves and others, in positive direction. Those who had challenges of their own families trying to suppress what they dreamed of becoming, just to follow silly rules of society. So I wondered, why are they the ones suppressed. I am not saying that this doesn't happen with men, but surely not to that extent as the women.
Dreams and careers are still questionable and a matter of choice. But mental and physical harassment isn't. Why women? I don't remember many cases where the same has been carried upon men. If there are, they are mostly workplace specific (mostly minor age cases) or jails. These are mainly men harassing men. I don't think these men are capable of handling the exact torture if conducted by women. But SHE has better things to do than wasting time on such atrocities.
Are women really weak?
I have a theory that is based on my experience. Men are jealous. They are not as beautiful as women. They are not multitasking like women. And they cannot run the house without the support of their female counterpart (generalized comment, no offense). So physical and mental harassment seems to be the only way they consider as necessary to show that men are more powerful than them.
Women are strong. They are capable of making strong decisions. They have the will to say no. They have the ability to create history, and who knows? May be a brilliant future never dreamed of. Give them the respect they deserve. Let them choose for themselves. Give them able guidance and opportunity. Don't make them weak. But a message to all of you men (including me) - get strong and take a positive stand to build a world where women are not treated like a toy of lust and pleasure.
Be a father, a son, a brother, a husband, a boyfriend, or just a good friend.
Be the man who gains respect by his deeds, rather than being the one who cuts the nose of his own gender.
Be a guardian, not a killer.
Be the protector of your own soul.
Be a hero.
Be a positive idol.
Be a real Man.
Respect Women."
The inner voice echoed in high volume, "Bravo gentleman! Bravo! So, ready for another step forward?"
I said, "With pleasure."
-Jatin H K Sharma
Saturday, April 12, 2014
The Last Mile!!!
Preface
"Get up!" Commanded my inner voice. "Let's take a walk..." I asked, "Is it urgent?" "Yes, very urgent" replied the voice. "Alright."
And so I picked myself up and moved towards the basement, where I parked my bike. As I was approaching it and searched for keys in my pocket, the inner voice shouted, "I said walk, not ride!" "Okay" I said in amazement.
And so we started walking out of the basement onto the road. I left my bike parked in the office. (In case anyone is thinking who is we? It's me and the inner voice.)
And that was the start of the longest walk I ever had till date. The longest conversation I ever had we my inner voice, as we walked through the matrix of massive buildings of Hiranandani Estate, Powai, Mumbai.
Stay tuned...
Saturday, March 29, 2014
Kuch Kuch Mere Jaisa
झुर्रियाँ थी दिखने लगी